Whenever I feel somewhat impatient or disheartened about things not changing, symptoms not subsiding, thoughts circulating around the same things, I remind myself that this has happened before.

I can recall different symptoms throughout my life so far and while I was experiencing them, it really felt as though I had been dealing with that thing forever. Skin issues, weird scratching, weight fluctuations, sleeping difficulties, hair loss, anxiety, feeling tired, feeling low and depressed, constipation (that was a big one), irregular bleeding, acne, I could go on and on.

These symptoms and so many more were present and at the time I was experiencing them, I felt so impatient and tired of the thing. I wanted it gone already. What I’m trying to get at here is that, nothing really lasts as long as I’m afraid it will last.

I remember how annoyed and frustrated I used to feel about scratching at certain parts of my body and that itch wouldn’t go away! I tried creams, visited a homeopath, tried my own willpower and nothing changed. I can’t remember now the exact length of time that the symptom lasted but I can tell you for sure that it was much longer than 12 months and then it just stopped. The funny thing is, when it did stop I didn’t notice. I just stopped scratching. And the other day I somehow started thinking about all the symptoms I’ve experienced in my life and that now I don’t have any of them and it seems like it’s been lifetimes ago. That itch came to mind because it’s fairly recent and somehow that realisation that nothing lasts forever brought me back to centre.

Nothing lasts forever and how beautiful is that!

It’s such a relief and most importantly a great reminder that just because something isn’t moving at the pace you want it to, doesn’t mean that you are stuck. It makes sense to feel sick and tired and frustrated and that doesn’t mean that I’m not moving forward.

Surrendering and trusting life is probably my biggest lesson so far and every day is a new opportunity to start over.