One very significant reason that stoped me from publicly expressing myself was privacy. I had this belief that if I share my thoughts and feelings with other people, if I share my writing and opinions in a blog or by commenting on instagram, then they won’t be mine anymore. Of course I was scared of rejection, of course I was afraid of being judged or cancelled, but it was actually so much more – I felt as though my integrity, my sense of self is threatened by having a voice and using it. Weird, right?!

Having any kind of public life seemed terrifying. Trouble is, this belief was a stumbling block for me since it was prohibiting me from using my voice. I wasn’t allowing myself to speak freely , to say what I wanted to say and to even express myself through art if I wanted to. Any form of self expression was instantly sending a message to my system that I’m crossing the line and that I should stop, retrieve to my cave , my quiet place where I’m invisible and make no sound so I won’t bother anyone. Ouch, I know.

I’m now shaking things up by consciously choosing the discomfort of being seen and heard and that’s why I created this space.

Which brings me to my second point and that is that , creating and sharing yourself with the world is for the sheer joy and pleasure of it. There is absolutely nothing to gain by sharing yourself with the world if the reason is to get validation about how good or palatable you are. And do you know why that is? Because we are all so remarkably unique that it doesn’t matter if others agree or applaud before our very existence. It really doesn’t.

We owe it to ourselves and to the universe to fulfil our dreams and desires in order to complete our mission in this life. Being yourself is the very essence of fulfilling your purpose!

This is a huge shift in perspective considering that, most of my life so far has been about how utilitarian I can be towards all aspects of my life and not doing anything just because it’s fun and enjoyable.

I think it was Fritz Pearls that said that fear is excitement without breath and to me that’s what it feels like every time I’m hitting the publish button. It’s not so much about how many people see my posts, but rather the very act of choosing not to hide away and having the courage to express myself just because. It’s been liberating allowing myself to be seen – it feels scary and exhilarating, fun and powerful at the same time.

Let yourself be seen ⚡️

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